So I have come to realize that this school year has literally been the worst so far. I lost my best friend that I’ve known since I was 5 and I don’t even know why, I lost my best guy friend over petty fights, and I lost my boyfriend over two years who I still care about, no matter the circumstances. I managed to crash two cars in the last three weeks & now have to bum rides everywhere I go. I have no money saved for college, therefore I’m working more and more. I don’t have the money for a sorority either, which I have been excited about joining since I can remember. The damages for both cars are being paid for with the money I saved so far from work. School is too much. I have not gotten one scholarship I applied for. And finally, I’m too stressed about all of this to ever just appreciate what I do have. It’s enough to make me want to curl up, forget my responsibilities, and cry. Sorry for the dramatics, but seriously.
I only have about two days left of school plus exams. So I’m hoping that means two more days of this attitude I have recently developed. Two more days of negativity and stress. Two more days of feeling sorry for myself and then a whole summer to turn it all around.
I want to be happy, for real.
So right at this moment I’m in a hotel right near the florida state campus & I can hardly contain my excitement. I am absolutely in love with tallahassee (even more than I had expected) and that makes me so happy that I made the right decision on school next year. I have a preview of the college tomorrow and then I’m going home to finish off this four day weekend with the people I love the most.
This past month has been a really rough one, not gonna lie, with friend/boy drama, but my life is doing a complete 360 right now.
a) I have some of the best friends a girl could ask for. Like seriously. Old and new.
b) Plans for prom are finally being made, so stoked. I’m also going shopping for my dress this weekend.
c) I’m loving my job and my coworkers. I actually enjoy working & want to take on more shifts, weird.
d) High school is almost over, which means fsu is almost here!!
Basically, despite all the malarkey that I’ve been put through/ gotten myself into this year, I’m beyond happy. I’m high on life. And this kind of happiness is why I love the big guy upstairs.
“If you’re reading this…
Congratulations, you’re alive.
If that’s not something to smile about,
Then I don’t know what is.”
